December 16, 2007
Him...or Him?
So, the reason why I haven't updated in a few days is because...well, nothing much has been going on. Nothing of major importance, that is. Finals are coming up this week, and I've barely studied for them the whole weekend. I have got to cut out of this bad habit of procrasination, because I can't afford to procrasinate in college next year.
But yeah, nothing going on with the boys...SG is in Florida right now. His birthday was yesterday. On Facebook I wished him a happy birthday, but my comment is buried under everyone else's comments. When I saw that, I felt a little depressed. I don't know why, since I don't like him like that or anything, but it just made me sad somehow. Which is kind of odd.
I don't know, but thing is, SG is much easier to talk to than Cap is. I'm still going to try to go for both of them, but it's just that with SG...I just click more with him. I'm not going to see him for like two weeks, but at least that way I can think of things to talk to him about. When I see him at church I'll just talk to him and ask him how Florida was, and then go from there. Maybe after a few times of talking I'll say "We should hang out sometime." I don't know. Maybe that would make me seem too aggressive? He is a Sagittarius, though, and I think Fire signs like aggressive girls. I don't know.
And with Cap, I don't know how I'm going to talk to him without sounding like a complete weirdo for just walking up to him randomly and starting a conversation. I mean, when you say it like that, it just sounds like I'm trying to be friendly, but when you do it in real life, it's like...augh.
Boys are so confusing. No, not just boys, love is just plain confusing. Crushes are even confusing. Why can't things just be simple? That's what I need. A nice casual, simple relationship. It seems like how things started so quickly also died so quickly. When I do get into a relationship, I want it to really last. I want to have a regular teenage relationship and see what it's like. I'm afraid that since I'm going into college without ever having a boyfriend or ever been kissed, I'll never be able to have that experience.
Well, aside from boys, I'm going to continue my story! I'll try to work on it over break when I get the chance. I have a feeling this part of the story is going to be sad, as the last time I wrote the story, this kid got into a coma (I have reasons why I put him into a coma that I do not wish to discuss). So that should be interesting. But I can't wait to write about spring break in the story, where the kids go on a road trip. I especially can't wait for when he proposes to the main character, and then when they go off into college. I've got part of the story uploaded onto my fictionpress account, but I still have to upload the first and third parts, in case anyone's interested. The title of the second part is called White Houses. Even without the first story, I think it should be easy to understand and to get the story.
Well I better get studying for those darn finals! More interesting stuff to come later, hopefully....
wait4you at 7:00 p.m.
